Just rambling
Joy and the pursuit of it may seem a selfish thing to some. But for me it is a neccesity. Maybe because after our son was killed I went into a major depression so I know what it is to live life with none.
While depressed it can seem like Joy is a myth. It sucks and is hard to imagine but life goes on. The wound is closing. It is deep and will never heal completely so Joy is, pain management. Hard to find at times but with faith to guide me it is never really far.
I gave two talks yesterday at the local Boys and Girls club. I told them some of Kyles story and how our family dealt with the tragedy. It was an emotional day. Luckily I have learned not to be embarassed by my tears. I just hope that my talk helped at least one person know that they are not alone.
It's all I can do.
This postcard came to me in my dreams.
I imagine that the back is signed like this.....................
Mom
This place is paradise.
You would not believe how much good
food there is here! Mike made curry last night.
Grandpa and I went fishing this morning.
The water was so cool and clear,
you could see the fish swimming
beneath the dock. I am so happy here
now that my mind is clear and I
remember what fun is, Grandpa
and I laugh all the time.
I love you Mom and am with you Alot
I hug you sometimes and I know that
you feel me. Try to feel me more
though ok?
Remember
I am Having a Great time
Until we meet again
Love K yle
p.s. Hug Dad and Cassie for me
La La Land
La La land .......This piece is for sale on ebay
where my name is artistcgoh
I often create by spattering and kniving paint onto my background.
In this case I used mat board recycled from my local framers.
I used acrylics here to start then using a pen began to fill in the things
I saw. I revisited here and there with acrylics and watercolor washes.
I love the way the layers develop.
Mistakes are incorporated joyfully
Negative Judgements are stopped during the creative process.
So much of me is in my artwork that at times it is scary.
But FeAr will not stop me.
So here I am
Yours
in Art
Cindy
